I feel at ease when I watch the kids having a good time. I'm not sure what John promised them, but they both appear to be in different moods lately, and that's what important.
And that smile I couldn't contain spread like a magnet, so I let it show. I don't care about anything else because I know that what happened to me and John just now has opened a door that will never close, marking the beginning of a new chapter in our relationship. Knowing the authority that I hold towards that chapter in our relationships makes me feel even stronger than I ever did before, and I know as long as he lets me lead us toward our goals things will turn out differently , as long as he keep his trust and respect for me, I believe we will be able to make a difference in this chapter, I believe in him truly. And to be honest I'm very excited to see where it will leads us.
I could still feel my parents staring at me, but to be honest, I didn't care. I can't share this information with them just yet; there are a lot of things I need to learn before I do. My mother never had any problems with Johnny and me being together; she said that what matters is that I'm happy. However, my father is a different story. No matter how much I try to convince him or prod him to get together with John, he ignores me like I was just a piece of dust. And now looking back, he always make John feel belittled, by bringing up subjects that he knows could hurt him, and as for a change, I won't allow that to ever happen again, not fuck that anymore, as much as I want to have my family together, I need to start laying down boundaries, I love my family, but if they can't accept that I am happily married, then they can't be with me anymore, I know it hurts, but once you are married , you became one, and it is time for me to be with my family, I need to stand up for us, for John he deserves so much more than that.
So you're just going to act like you don't see us? Seriously, Sammy, you're going to let that man walk all over you like that? My father judges me, walk all over me, what do you mean? I question him fiercely, you're the one who takes your time judging people, people you've never met, but what did I expect from you? It's always your rules and nothing else. You never take a second to get to know the man who makes your daughter happy; you make my entire marriage a joke because you feel like it, but I am the one getting walked on; ask yourself that question, If you did at least get to know him, do you think he would have gone through all those links over a small misunderstanding? I am not blaming any of you for his behavior, but at least accept that some of his actions are caused by your own personal feelings towards him. He loves me dad, I fixed my eyes on him, please for my sake, can you at least give him a chance to talk? I walk toward my dad and hold his hand, kissing it, I love you daddy, you have been nothing but a blessing for me, for my whole family, my existence is because of you, I cherish you like a diamond, But if you can't accept John on this new Chapter in my marriage, let end this story.
My father's eyes widened, my mother's mouth dropped, and my brother stood blankly at me. Jaz gave me a proud smile, and I let go of my father's hand, looking at everyone. I love you all, but I can't accept you treating us like a joke. I promise John that I will make it happen, so he can cheat on you again. My brother coldly answered at my statement, I just smiled at him, no that his promise to us, I am making sure I keep my. Okay, let it rest now. Jasmine quickly pulls my brother away from me, I know it's not my business, no it is, I answer her, say what's on your mind, Jasmine, I encourage her, look Mr Brown, you love me as a daughter, my father quickly stops her, and replies yes, I know, but you're not John, you different, you a good, sweet loving woman but John, he's a bad person, I could feel it, but I'm not Jasmine quickly defended John, and a tear streamed down my cheeks. As far as I know, she always brings up her tragic history to defend Johnny, and I detest how my father never sees how much his negligence affects all of us.
Sammy, I have a feeling he is using my baby for something, and I will not let him torture her like this. I know you hate me, my father continues on, but as a father, what do you expect me to do, please Princess, you my only daughter, I pour out blood for you, I treat you like a queen, and now I have to sit there watching a man not worthy of you to treat you like you deserve a minimum, I won't, Dad, what make you think, John treated me like that, you remember when we went to the mountains together and I ended up messing it up, who stay by me, he did, he stayed up all night making plans for him to impress you again, what should he do, how can he talk, do you know he speaks Italian more than I do, just to make you smile, not once did you ever talk to him to at least find out, on your birthday last year you give everyone a praise for everything he did for you, you wanted to do a beach party with no one there but your family, he did, and what worse tears fall down my eyes, he didn't even show up, because he knows that if he came, his face will mess up your day, even though everything was from his own money, but for me he accepted it.
Yes, dad, you treat me like a queen, but what about John? Do you really think he will ever allow me to be hurt? I get it, but at least get to know him and have a conversation with him; if your feelings remain the same, I won't bother you anymore. Still, please give him a chance; I'm tired of seeing him crying over you, over a man who doesn't even bother to care about his feelings; I'm tired of hearing him ask how he can make his feelings for you better; it's been years, dad; how can he be a good husband while constantly comparing himself to others? please let us start over and give our relationship a chance please.
Jackson, that is enough, my mother voice finally rises, Sammy she walk toward me, smiling, I let out a little laugh, look baby girl, nothing is wrong with John, your father is just a dick, he's jealous of the fact that he makes me laugh more than he does, he wants to keep you as a little girl, he refuses to let you grow, you are indeed a married woman, you don't own your dad, no fucking explanation, we having a lunch date tomorrow, bring him over, Ania, my father screams, shut up, you don't deserve no word, bring him over baby girl , Jackson owns him an apology, what, my father voices again with a shock expression on his face, yes, my mother looks at him. Nothing my father back away, hand in the air, fine you right my father's sight, accepting his fate, good, my mother replied, and as for you, my mother turn toward my brother, Mike shock as my mother accusations, what I didn't do nothing to him, my brother replied, I don't care what you did or didn't do, you and your father owe him an apology, and it better be true, or help me God, Sammy I know you have more questions to ask John, so go ahead and call him and see where he is. Whatever y'all were doing upstairs, my face flushed, go finish it, the kids will be OK, go. I ran upstairs to call John.
A smile spread out my face when John give me the address, I know what going to happen and I couldn't wait for it.