Sathurday | 11 am
Todoroki's POV
I open my eyes, I've been laying in bed for the past 3 hours, I can't believe I fell asleep in his bed... I look around the room, it feels so empty despite all the furniture that's around. I stand up and slowly walk to the desk in the corner of the room, all of his hero notebooks are there, even the one Bakugo burned. I pick them one by one, reading the informations in them. I fall on the one about me, there's hearts everywhere and cute comments on my physic, guess he had a crush on me for a long time... Suddenly I notice some wet spots on the page, I look closer to see another one appear, I bring my fingers to my cheeks. I was crying again, I sigh and close the journal before wiping my tears, the door slams open to a very panicked Kirishima and Katsuki.
"OH THANK GOD YOUR HERE!" Kirishima says as he exhaled loudly.
"Did you guys need me?" I said with monotonely.
"No idiot! We we're making sure you didn't do something stupid!" Katsuki says as I sigh.
Aizawa told us the true story yesterday by phone, Izuku was killed by a vampire, and not any vampires either... My own brother. I sigh and stand up to walk out, they watch me carefully as I make it to the kitchen and start to cook.
"Hey man... You know we're here to talk right?" Kirishima says as I nod.
"I'm fine thank you." I say as Katsuki slams his fist against the table.
"IF YOU ARE FINE THEN YOU NEVER REALLY LOVED HIM!" He screams as I flinch.
"What did you say?" I said aggressively.
"Okay this didn't come out correctly, right Bakubro?" Kirishima says trying to calm the situation.
"NO! YOU HEARD ME! YOUR ASS NEVER LOVED HIM IF YOUR ALREADY FINE ABOUT IT!" He yells before I grab his collar.
"OF COURSE I LOVED HIM! HE WAS EVERYTHING TO ME!" I scream as he glance at what I was cooking.
"Your not cooking soba?" He says now calm.
"I... No... I wanted to eat this..." I said letting him back down and return to the stove.
I finished the food as they watch me and placed it on the table, I stared at it as my tears fell down.
"He can't enjoy it anymore... But I will..." I say as I take a bite.
"Oh... He made Katsudon..." Kirishima says softly.
"Sorry to have said that earlier... I'm just... so fucking angry." Katsuki says as I nod.
Of course he'd be angry, we all we're, the one thing we hunt and kill every day slipped out of our reach and killed Izuku. I finish my bowl and sigh, there's this constant feeling of uneasiness in my heart. I know what's missing obviously, but I don't know how to fix it, if it can even be fixed... I clean the dishes and walk towards Izuku's bedroom, I enter it and take a deep breath. Everything made me feel whole in here, his smell, his objects, his clothes... Our memories... We may have not been dating for long... But I loved him since the sport festival, those words never left my heart.
"IT'S YOURS! NOT HIS! IT'S YOUR POWER TODOROKI!"
Fucking hell this hurts, I'll never hear his sweet voice, his constant mumbling.
"Kacchan!"
He really never called him anything else huh? It was Kacchan, Kacchan, Kacchan... I hope he's okay, if I take it like this, I can only imagine how bad he's taking it.
Katsuki's POV
Kirishima just left, I was really worried about Icyhot, I completely putted aside my feelings. I really tried to fight them off, however my tears fell down my face as I gritted my teeth.

Stupid Deku, getting yourself killed like that, what about your promise to fight me once you mastered one for all, about becoming the number one hero... You really leave it up to me huh? Fuck! This hurts you.... you nerd... I loved you so bad I was willing to let you be with Icyhot... FUCK! I sigh and sit at my desk, I look in my files when I spot Deku's hero voice logs. In our second year, we made video's for our future selves... Deku had sent me his for approval on how good they we're. I hover my mouse curser over the play button before clicking it, playing audio after audio.

I break down as I hear his voice ring in my head, it's killing me inside slowly, they had no rights to kill him! He didn't deserve this! WHY HIM!? WHY DEKU OF ALL PEOPLE!?
"Kacchan!"
Shut up. I don't want to hear it.
"Hey Kacchan! Goodmorning!"
Shut up!
"Your amazing Kacchan!"
SHUT UP! MAKE IT STOP!
"You've always been amazing Kacchan!"
"SHUT UP DAMNIT!" I yell trowing my chair across my room.
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! GET OUT OF MY FUCKING HEAD! IT HURTS TOO MUCH! KILL ME ALREADY!!!" I scream as shitty hair bust my door and pins me down.
"Bakugo calm down!"
"NO! I WON'T! HE WON'T STOP TALKING TO ME! HE'S FUCKING GONE AND THE NERD STILL ANNOYS ME! DAMNIT I LOVED HIM SO MUCH KIRISHIMA! I'M LOSING MY MIND!" I cry out as he hugs me.
"I miss him too Bakugo... I know it hurts man... I so sorry..." He says as I felt my body empty it's tears on his shoulder.
He stayed there holding me for what seemed like an hour, he suddenly gives me a small mp3 smiling.
"Listen to music, it'll help alot... I need to go study, but if you need anything just call me okay? I'm there for you." He says as I nod.
I look at the small object in my hands, I skim through the songs, I don't know any of them. I click random, landing on a song I already regret to listen too.

I curse as my tears fall down my cheeks, I look at the little electronic device that just made me feel 10 time worst. I suddenly hear another song... Is there only sad song on this fucking thing.

I'm about a second away from giving up when a song I know plays, It's not really relatable and is kinda sad... But I like it.

Yeah no, this shit isn't helping my mood at all... I sigh and place the mp3 on my desk as I step out, the only way I ever fixed my feelings was fighting, I did it once with Deku... God I wish he was still here... Fuck why can't I move the fuck on! HE'S FUCKING DEAD MOVE ON YOU HOT HEADED FUCK! I close my eyes, I'm outside of ground beta, I didn't even mean to walk here, I can easily reimagine our fight.

Fuck I had really beaten him up that day... I wasn't myself, I mean yeah I bullied him here and there, and probably said things I shouldn't have, I'll never... I'll never get to apologize... No... I never will...
"Katsuki?" A familiar voice says.
I turn to see Icyhot standing behind me, he looks just as distressed as me, figures as much.
"Hey." I say avoiding to look at him.
"You shouldn't be out alone this late... You... Never mind that..." He says looking down as he approaches me.
"Why are you out here?" I asked as he sighed.
"Well probably the same as you, I wanted to let my quirk go wild out here to relieve myself... I... I can't move on Katsuki..." He says as I nod.
"Yeah, me either... Hey, how about we fight it out. Me and you Icyhot, no holding back." I say as he smirks.
"Your so on." He says charging at me.
We ended up getting scolded by Aizawa for destroying half of ground beta, but we both felt somewhat better after going all out at one another. The organization gave us a vacation for the whole week, I mean we we're grieving so who could blame us. I mean we still are, fuck we haven't even gotten close to accepting it, but at least we we're slowly healing.
-TO BE CONTINUED