I m sorry u said u didn't want a letter but I think this is the only way ,I can, u know ,speak out, coz everything is just filling up my mind.
I had to do this I had no option babu.
No one is fucking listening to me, what the real real fuck. i m so fed up babu can't help.
I know these days i m being selfish . actually mujhe apna self respect bag me bharke nikal jana chahiye, i know that . I'll do this too .
Well to be very honest, after my pregnancy situations and after u were talking about the marriage stuff and all
i swear I fell for u even harder so much that I made my mind that this time, I won't loose you, I'll make it work , I'll try to show every little efforts that I can. That was the reason even one day before my university exams , I talked to u for hours on call and listen to ur stories. I know it's nothing much, but even if it's thodasa I wanted to be more with you. Mera bolne ka matlab ye h ki , i wanted us to end up together..but i think now ki this is something only i wanted 😔
Baby how can I not love u tell me?
U only said ki only u can handle me and my nakhre . Anaesthesia me lage hue insaan ko u are like, say love uh and like ab to bolna padega, what are you , stupid? Hugging me , kissing me , i was really so happy, i was thinking ki humari legal pregnancy me kitna laad milega mujhe . i even promised our baby, ki usko hum future me layenge is world me..
wtf am i even saying 😂😂but these things are true , i m an emotionally invested person ye to batane ki zarurat nahi and i think i told u in that letter too that so many things are left for us to do...
it's deep now u can skip this part if u want
ur eyes, ur lips, lips ki thickness, ur hands , hands ka length breadth and extend of ur grip on my body, ur smell, ur hugs, the times when u needed attention like a baby , and me holding u in my arms, me being in your arms and being able to talk about any shit and also willing to hear anything , the way u did(batana padega what u did ka meaning) , bold but calm... i have deeply felt it all. i miss it all . i miss us.
i told u too skip, maine warning di thi🙂
Aur batao maza aaya rulane me?( Chid rahe honge ab😂😂)chido mat sach h .. to kya bolu aur? ye hi to Kiya h
Aisa lagta h ki phone dressing table pe rakhke kitchen me chupne chale gaye ho....vo bhi jab mai naah rahi thi...bas ek call and sab thik ho jayegaa(kash aisa hoo), aap haske bolege Mai Masti kar raha tha ... - if you know you know.....u know..... aapko samjha right???
kash ye reality na ho, kash ye bura sapna ho , Mai uthu and sab thik ho jaaye😌
Ek baat to dikh gayi le aap batao ya mat batao..Jo mujhe dikh raha h usse i m telling
ki u choose to move on . ye dikh raha h ab ispe argument nahi aa ..😒
Whatever your reasons are, i am upset that you made this decision of our separation alone , mujhe include hi nahi kiya? khud hi kr liya sab, itni hi importance thi kya meri?
When u said usi din that I deserve better, and ki aap apne parents k against nahi jaoge plus ur sisters telling me ki ye khud hi kar rahe h sab...I mean what can I do and what should I do .... u r telling me trust God , babe I trusted u can't u see???
When u did that engagement ek baar bhi like ek baar bhi u didn't think about me..ku babu???.....and i think itna is enough to tell i was never important.
And after that, aap mujhe explanations dene aa rahe the , mere papa vo , mere rishtedaar vo, ye vo ye vo, insab me babu , sachme kasam se saying ,agar ek baar bhi babu ek baar bhi instead of giving explanation , ye socha hota na ki ," Mai ye sab usko samjaunga kaise, kaise tolerate karegi vo is situation ko , ku Mai usko hurt krne wale kaam krta hu" , i swear mai samajhti ki kuch to thaa , like kuch to thaa....but Mera to socha hi nahiii and this is true.
Abhi parso hi u said ki , shuvra tujhe ek sach batata hu sun....my mind went blank....and what u said ki mujhe ye ladki pasand hi nhi h.
babu is baat pe hasu ki rou? Babu le ye problem nhi h ki we are separated but ye problem h ki vo pasand nhi h , babu🤦🤦
U still just say , everything will be fine , dipali boli aage badh , Teri life bahot h aage, even u say the same thing.....do u think these are the words that I want to hear now?
Forget trusting God , i m begging him, literally gir ke bhik maangti hu mai, ki koi to samjhe mujhe?? koi ek???pls koi to samjhe mujhe 🙂
Friends are no use , meri story kisiko nhi pata, sirf mujhe pata h , how much it is special only i know but u kept on ruining everything.
It's tiring, it feels like a big hole created in my life.
Ab kasam se ye sab bolne ka ye motive nahi h ki aapko hurt Karu bas ye h ki mere na aise chote chote dreams the, simple normal life with you , i always thought our bond was unbreakable but at the end it broke.
We are nothing.
it feels so bad ki we couldn't even gave a good name to our relationship when our story was so beautiful. The years spent with u was a roller coster ride where we never left each other's hand. but ab to chut Gaya.
Time bhi nahi de rahe ho ..... kabhi socha h how it makes me feel?
it makes me feel like is insaan ko milna hi nahi h , ya humara milna important hi nahi h....
i think after a really long time I m saying this
I love you, with all my heart soul and body.
I love you kasam se. i have only love u.
I m not saying do anything for us, won't say even, but just be happy wherever u are.
and really please ignore me if u get to see me around.
we just need to be strangers again that's the option I can see now...
now don't say contact me reh and all, babe it hurts pls understand this much ,
it will keep on hurting,
it still hurts..
and as I said before , I m afraid that I won't be able to move on coz for me the last 5 yrs it was u, my one and only old pure innocent love😘. i think that's how I feel proud of what I had with uh ..old pure innocent love ❤️
and now I hope I can delete those 5 yrs out of my life and forget u as soon as possible.
Diwali me shadi h , ye sochke hi ... cannot explain how I feel
Jab actually hogi tab pata nhi kya hoga
i get it u r letting me go , and i m sorry I was holding on for so long, when it is almost one month, but not anymore babu.. love u
for the last time babu i m saying, i love u and i would have done anything for us only if u waited.
no disclaimer today babu..but remember to take care of ur health and get along with ur future.
Baki Mera to vaise bhi koi nhi sochta(ha bolo rotodu ab) but ye fact h...
aur kabhi bor nhi karungi ye last tha
bye!