The second week completed, it had been a month now since Shawney left. I heard nothing from her Uncle and cousin.
The third week in April, Torren was up early, he decided it was time to stop moping around waiting for her to call. Torren dress, not sure if he was ready to visit the factory, but he was going to take the first step.
Train, notices Torren dress and coming down the stairs, thinking 'When he and Dalia were married he used to dress the same way when he had to go to the factory.
Since his discharge from the hospital in February, he never visited the factory. He must be going to the clinic, "Son are you going somewhere this morning?"
"Dad, I have decided it is time that I visit the factory, I need to see how things are running in the business."
When Gretta held onto his foot, watching him stoop down and scoop her up in his arms, hearing him saying "Honey do you want to go with Daddy to see the factory?"
"Drive!"
"Yes, for a drive with your daddy."
"Yep!"
When he called out to Liz, "Liz will you change Gretta and pack a bag with her tea, snacks, and a suit of clothes for me please, we are going to work in the factory."
"Yes Sir."
Pondering in his heart, 'Shawney had to take a hard step with her family, I must also do what is important for the business.
Dad know so much about her, did he invited her with the intention of us getting to know each other, or did he have in mind marriage? I know he trusts her and likes her a lot.'
As memories flooded back from the night of the dinner, 'I tried to ask her to marry me, but someone was always watching us.
The only time we were alone was when she fell, and I took her to the room.
She looks so heartbroken, I could not proposed to her then, she wasn't in the right frame of mind. Now I have no idea where she is and if I will ever see her again?
Recalling that morning hearing her over the phone and the way she was crying. She sounds so confused and broken, but her concern was for me.
I cannot let her down, she asked me to promise to take care of myself. She didn't say where she was going, but she said she will be alright and will miss me very much.'
Noticing dad coming, Torren brush the tears away, 'No one must know how I feel about her.
I will just have to talk to the Lord as she said, and I know He will bring her back to me. If I go and look for her, I won't know where to begin I must just be patient.
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Feeling her insides trembling, Shawney, held the hot cup of tea with both hands, the hotness was good, and as she sip it her prayer was that her inside felt the warmness to remove the chilliness.
As the hotness glides down helping the inside to warm up a bit, removing that chilliness. Shawney recalled the day by the pool, the way that chilliness was causing her inside to jump.
I thought it was because I had slept the night in the church, or even stayed too long in the pool, but this is the same feeling again.
I should buy the few things I will need at the supermarket just in case. I don't want what occurred that day to repeat itself and I am caught unprepared.
As her mind runs on Torren, 'Shawney knew she cannot return to him, I am sure they have already heard what I have done to my family.
And I am certain they hate me, but it doesn't matter, I hate myself, even more, the lease I could have done was to spare Sid, Curtis, Meg, and Linsey the heartache.
But they all stood around doing and saying nothing on my behalf. Not one of them stood up to defend me, even Julien and Shantel just stood there.'
Feeling her inside grieving for allowing the rage to get the better of her. As the tears seep down thinking.
'All I have done for them the only person who really cared was Uncle Ken. Why did I have to listen to what he said?
If I did just ignored it, but they had really hurt me causing me to do exactly what he said?
"Oh God, if only what I did, didn't make me so unfeeling or uncaring? How could I ever face them again oh Lord, I am so ashamed of myself."
The tears just flow, unable to stop it, 'Why did I have to become so angry, when Torren gets angry he smashes things, I should have just smash something and not go to the extreme of putting them on the street.'
Feeling the tiny hand on her face, forgetting everything at that moment with the touch, "Gretta honey I miss you so much."
Only when the child spoke it wasn't Gretta. Looking up seeing the gentleman hold the child's hand and walk towards their table.
"Oh, how I miss having cake and ice-cream with you Torren, I miss how we converse together, will I ever feel that joy again?
I hope you are well my friend, when I am with you I feel relax and happy. But I am too embarrassed to face you, for what my family had said about you, will you please forgive me."
Allowing the tears to continue flowing, Shawney just sit there, few people pass by and glance at her, but she didn't care.
Going to the supermarket getting a few items then when to the church, 'The Pastor will not mind if I stay a few days. It is warm inside and I could do some praying and see where You want me to go next?'
A week had gone by and Torren had not eaten a thing, "Torren will you join me for breakfast son?"
"I am not hungry Dad."
"Son, you will get sick, you have to eat something."