I am seeking, I am striving I am in with all my heart. -Vincent Van Gogh
I was back in that small body again and I looked down to my small hands.
They were still pale but atleast they seemed more vibrant, more alive than in my taller body.
I took a deep breath, realizing I was laying on the ground and the sun was hot, warm. It heated my skin and blinded my eyes.
But for some reason I enjoyed this. There was something about this random moment that made me feel comfortable and I was determined to find out why.
I put up my small arm to block the light a bit and I looked around to see a vast, grass field and hills which one I laid upon.
There were children at the bottom of some of the small hills and now one in front of me. A familiar one, with light curly,brown hair.
Was this Ryan? And if it was why was he small? The Ryan I saw had muscles and was taller than me. Who was this?
The small Ryan waved at me with a bright smile, his face looking off into the distance a bit.
He looked back at me with a concerning frown and he said, "You know, you are not alone, right?"
I looked down to the playing children below the hill and back at Ryan, "Of course I know there are children everywhere, of course we're not alone."
His voice lowered and seemed to get deeper as he stared at me with harsh, baby blue eyes. "You know that's not what I mean Lililly."
My face went pale as I watched as tear went down the side of his face . Making me see the pain, the people who hurt me. The bullies, that use to roam free, how no did anything. But Kai did, and as he helped me I learned.
I wasn't alone.
I shot back up from the vision I had? A nightmare? Memories? I was back where Ryan and Searena was and they were still together.
I took a sigh seeing this and let a breath of relief, I was about to take walk myself but was stopped by a familiar face.
"Lililly, we know what we're gonna do until Searena awakens and it involves you." Kai said with a subtle voice, making my heart drop.
Was he gonna hurt me? Not possibly right? Not when he was the one who saved me in my visions. Wasn't he my hero?