I was still sad when hearing his harsh words. Why didn't he stop hurting my feelings like it was nothing? I sat down on the bed and tried to close my eyes, but I couldn't sleep at all.
The world is still colorful, but my life was already black without colors. Why don't I have a family in this life? My original family left me early, and I still had to continue living in a palace, but this palace is not mine.
I wanted my own house, my own family. My adoptive family loves me, but his harsh words made me uncomfortable in that palace, and a poor girl like me never dared to dream of living in a castle. I feel dirty and not suitable there.
Only singing can make me calm down.
[How is it that I've fallen in love with you
How can it hurt this much
Never before have I ever wanted someone this much
If I say I miss you about a thousand times, will it reach you?
If I try crying and fussing, will you know my feelings?
Should I try hating your name about ten thousand times?
Should I just count the resentments?
Although this love has already grown so much,
Since you are not me, you probably don't feel the same.
Yes, I was the one who liked you more (than you liked me).
Even if my feelings are hurt nine times, I prefer smiling even just once,
Since I'm happy by your side.
I've never comfortably scowled in dislike even once.
It was as if I could do anything you asked.
Even if it's like a 1000-year-long wait, I still prefer seeing you.
One day, for one month, like that, one year...
Though knowing you won't come, I keep turning around.
Waiting, waiting, I fall asleep.
When will I be able to comfortably see you?
When will I be able to discard all this desire?
Because I want to know everything about you.
Since when has it been living, hidden inside of me,
Becoming a deeply embedded thorn that I simply can't remove?]
(An: this is a Korean song called "Younha - Waiting")
It is a song that can express my feelings right now. The girl from this song is the same as me. We have unrequited love that hurts us more than a sharp knife. Our wounds will never heal in time. Our love was too powerful and hurt us deeply.
I wish I had a delete feature in my heart so I could erase these painful feelings.
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In another place far, far away, there was a man who sat down on a seat. He looked calm on the outside, but his heart was in turmoil.
His mind was unreadable. His expression was undetectable. He had a cold temper, but now he was in a panic.
Why did I talk to her like that? Ah, my stupid mouth. Did I hurt her again? What did I do? I can't do anything right.
His name is Claude Lockheart, and he reincarnated into this life. He regretted chasing Mio away. If he hadn't chased her away, maybe she wouldn't have died miserably on the street.
He had a chance to fix his mistake, but he made another mistake again. He reincarnated at the moment after Mio's suicide attempt. He was too late to save Mio.
He got a second chance, but why did my mouth still talk harshly like a knife? I made her sad again, and she was crying again. I didn't know how many times she cried behind my back without me knowing.
Even though I never treated her gently, she never told my parents at all. She always acted as usual in front of me in my parents' presence.
In this life, her family was already dead, and she was alone. I knew that she was afraid of me now. Claude, you stupid. How could you talk so harshly to her? He could imagine that Mio would stay away from him from now on.
His road to chasing his wife is long. She became a timid girl, and she was never like this before.
He needed a long time before he could see her cheerful smile again.
(An: are you a tsundere?)
His assistant didn't know how complicated his boss's mind was right now and just kept driving to the company.
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