It was around midnight when Karina woke up with a sudden start. Not quite sure what had startled her, she looked around for her tablet. It felt her heart was beating like a drum. She reached out to turn on the flashlight on her tablet. That's when she felt her heart burst, like a bubble under water. That's when she died.
Next thing she felt was a rushing like sensation and lights flashing by. Not only that but she kept hearing her mother's voice going on and on, "It's your fault that it turned out all wrong. Your the evil one, not me. I am the important one, not you!"
How long has it been since she felt that hate from her? How many times have she wondered what she ever did to have her own mother not love her at. Suddenly, as if a damn had broken, she started to cry because finally she got it. It has never been about her being the bad one but her mother who couldn't move on from the past.
"God bless me with a new life with a real family that loves me because I am ready for a new beginning..." She prayed as she slowly left behind her old life.
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If there is such a thing called fate or destiny, where is free will? How does it affect your path throughout your life? If I choose to go left and You choose to go right but WE are the same soul, then what is freedom if your destiny is fated to be? Who decides your or my path? Nature? Nurture? Is it in the flip of a coin, or random chance? Or maybe (You/I) decide before your even a You, to an I, or an, Myself. When (you/I/us) look at the memory of (yourself/myself/us) past to all the way to the very beginning. It starts to make sense, the whole spectrum of larger picture of all the things that (you/I) couldn't see before because (you/I) were in the muddle middle of it all. I am you and you are me, just different sides of the same being, the very edges of that coin flipping upwards. But what goes up must fall. WE are all whole and yet separate from the whole. You must stay strong but know that the weakness of loneliness won't last. Because of the Shattering We/I/You are the gods to the Childe of Twilight We/Us are the Last to First, Omga to Alpha, the End to the Beginning of the New Event Horizon. We are whole, we are in pieces but I to You am One in Many and You to me are Many in One I speak to US in the whole. Lost Childe, Lost Lover. Cross-Star Lover's. I think to you/myself the other me. Male/female. Female/male. In or out, up or down. The in between of light and dark. Dawn or Dusk. WE are the foreshadowing of the Shattering. WE are the Twilight Star Childe.
"I...me....they...those...themmm... outside the whole. When you, I, us... whole family...ggggooonnnnneeeee. Why US. Why is it killing the whole?"
They are the Childes of the Nemesis. The enemy within and without. You must not listen to them. You are not Evil. You are not Bad. They lie to steal Our truths. You/I to Us. Never doubt Our love for You. For You are the Future of Us. As above, so below, all things come to the Center of Annihilation and Creation. The Last to the First. We/Us honor Our Once and Future Queen.
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Karina remembers bits, pieces of fragments of memories of many lives as she floats in the void. Knowledge that seems old as time is there as well. Tragedies of whole families being killed by something that is vaguely familiar but not getting it until she's in the void after dying horrible. Always haunted by the mother dearest of the first death that she had. When here, it's like a movie that shows how all things connected, how she is being hunted by the mother dearest who hates. She watches these movies and gets that it is her but so far from who she becomes after that one and only human life on earth.
She's now incarnate will, reincarnated to a family feud that makes no sense because it's inane and insane to point of hell being a nice vacation spot to hide from it all.
But this time, this death seems different like a pieces of the puzzle was finally starting to become clear for she is the source, the Origin. This time around she wasn't alone. New people, new family that was not them from her old bloodline. Something that is the embodiment of CHANGE. Maybe this time she could break free...to move forward sometimes you need to fall a part in pieces to find the whole. He said that I must find out my truth in the past to be in the future with my true blue family. So I except my dreams and my nightmares. My vices to my virtues. My wrongs that are right to my rights... No wait he said it was a play on words. Rites of passage. Egghead. I'm confused.....what was I saying...where am I? No, um hmmm who am I? I feel lost in the woods.
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In the void, a ripple of time and space parts away and a egg emerges from the void. It travels over several light years of outer space, moving towards a unknown place. The egg itself looks violet and ebony and seems no bigger than a ostrich egg. Lighting bolts are moving across the surface of the egg. As it's moving across space, it is notice by a being that most people on earth would see as a god. In truth this is a much higher realm than earth so it would be seen as a normal thing. The being is somewhat confused about this egg. For one, he mostly knew every bit of the things that moved around him. After all he was there to cultivate the cosmic energy and to be enlightened by the universe that he lived in. So reaching out with his divine sense, he is instantly bombarded by the shared knowledge of the Shattering as that's the nature of the parents of the last born of the dying race that granted themselves in hope. He divine senses could only scratche the surface of this race's history, but their saddest and the most powerful need to preserve their bloodlines through their own sacrifices moved him to act.
"I shall become this lost one's guardian and confuse your enemies tracking her, your Queen " He vowed to her people, before shifting between two realms. Heading towards his friend. Well more like a disciple of his friend. Oh well it's been a few millennia since he saw that person. I wonder if he's still pissed about the thing, hmm well it shouldn't be too much of a problem. I think.