Nick
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I knew the guy believed none of the shit I had just uttered. He had probably seen something like this in his line of work before and by now he had a theory of his own conjured up in his thick skull. Even so, there are parts of the puzzle that he just can't glue together. I know I sound insane right now but I'm sure my Princess will tell us something when we get home
Me: Yes, or so it seems. He was the only unlucky one to be pushed out by the car and given momentum by the steep slope.
I stuttered until I got it right and I'm sure by now the guy is sure that I'm feeding him from a bowl of utter crap!
McKenzie: Mhm I see . . . He said that with his eyesbrow neatly scrunched together while scribbling on the thick notebook in his hand.
I was caught up in my latest shitty telenovela that I failed to notice my wife and my princess standing next to me in an almost statuesque manner, tears streaming down my wife's face . . . Tears being the defining difference between her and a sculptured statue. I can see that she's overwhelmed by the events of the day. I cant even imagine what my daughter is thinking or feeling right now.
Sally: Can we wait for you in the car?
She whispered in my left ear,indicating with her palm that she needs the car keys.
Me: Of course, we'll finish with the formalities here then I'll join you.
I gave her the car keys and got back to calling the boy's parents and assuring them that he'll be fine(McKenzie's words that is). They were on their way.
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Dana
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Nothing seems to make sense to me . . . From the shared awkward glances between my mom and dad to that creepy paramedic. He had a rather strange look that says "I know you've got something to hide". No worries though. We're headed to daddy's car and I feel really weird. Why was I the only one affected by the accident? That is, if you can call it that. Bad things are suddenly scattered in every direction I take. And mom. . . Why is mom crying? She is thinking. She is flooded by emotions. Anger, frustration and a bit of relief. She has regrets. . . All the pictures are vague and have my head on an orbit around planet "sanity" and planet "looney". She must be exhausted and overwhelmed at once. But I don't get it, why so much hatred in such a gentle heart . . . Wait! Am I seriously reading her mind right now? How did that even happen . . . Mom must've noticed my sudden halting behind her. She turned back
Mom: Oh my poor baby
I honestly don't know why but I also found that something inside me just snapped and damn, I just cried . . . I let it all out. I didn't care if daddy and the paramedic heared my untamed screams. I cried for all the bad things happening to me, with a foreboding feeling that it's the unveiling of a real nightmare to come. I felt like I inhibit a thousand restless souls inside me. I cried for all that I don't have answers for. I cried for all the pain that reflects to those next to me because of something I don't understand
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I don't know if I'm dreaming but I think I just blinked and I was suddenly next to Derrick. I am holding his hand and he is still laying still in what looks like a stretcher but I cant see where its standing. Its legs are infinitely long. Everything here is pristine white. I cant even see my own feet. My first thought was that it's a hospital but on a closer inspection. Its far from it. Infact it feels like im in . . . Heaven? This is it, I'm officially losing it! But I don't havetime to focus on that as my nerves are on high alert. My pulse is abnormally fast. Even my tanned skin tone is glowing. . . Almost translucent. Something is touching my legs,almost like a caress. The more the smoke caress my legs, I feel a compelling need to . . . Do something and very fast. Oh God Oh God what must I do. The urge gets deeper and deeper and darker every passing second.
" Don't rush it, let it guide you until you are strong enough to guide it. Stop trying so hard . . . This is you, your true self so don't repel it with thoughts"
That old women's ominous voice again. Her voice now sounds ancient and compelling. My head is spinning very dangerously. I cant focus and her every word reverberates with the whole place. Every single syllable sharply carried by some sort of media straight into my skull so that her words resonate with something deep inside me. I cant do this . . . She has to stop speaking.
Me: Just stop okay? Just STOP!
I shouted trying to close my ears with my hands
-"very well then, brace yourself"
She said that with a mischievous glint in her hollow eyes.
A shift and Derrick's hand just let go of mine. I knew, I just knew that I had lost him. I've killed Derrick.
The look in his eyes as his body started to descend into the abyss was hauntingly painful, like he blames me. Like I could've altered the outcome of the events. But im just Dana and I can only do so much!
NOOOOO NOOOOO
I just lost it, I got really mad. I shot my head up and screamed obscenities, one after another. I cursed all that knows my name. The sky must've gotten mad at me, it also turned a scary dark blanket and hurled lightning right back at me then it was lights out, again!
*sigh*