Come to think of it, I've been wondering about that for a long time.
Hime often calls herself an "unattractive child." I never understood why she would say such a thing, even though she is such a cute and nice girl... but I felt like I had a glimpse of the reason.
"He was fluent in conversation. He could take care of himself. He would read books next to other children playing in the mud. He didn't cry even when they played pranks on him. He didn't laugh even when we tried to comfort him... He wasn't like a child in a bad way. It's no wonder the nursery teachers were creeped out by him."
This child never forgets information or events that he has seen or heard once.
This is why her intelligence develops so quickly, but she can't forget even bad memories.
(Maybe because of past experiences, Hime thinks she's not lovable...)
I don't think it's an exaggeration to call it traumatic.
At the very least, she will always carry the emotional scars she suffered at that time.
It's a memory from a young child that most people would forget, but she can't forget it.
Because I can remember everything.
(She doesn't like to cause trouble for others, but maybe it's also a form of self-defense.)
Dependence on others is a risky act. Depending on the mood of the other person, they may get angry and tell you not to be dependent on them. Or they may become dissatisfied and think, "I've done so much for you, why don't I get anything in return?"
Maybe she wants to avoid that risk.
She can't forget bad memories, so she's always on guard to make sure nothing happens. That's why, even as a child, she has developed the skill to be considerate of others. Like adults, she builds relationships only on the surface.
(That's what it was)
I finally feel like I have a better understanding of the personality of the girl named Hoshimiya Hime.
It was good to get to know this guy a little better.
"Sorry to remind you of something painful."
However, I must reflect on the fact that my curiosity reminded Hime of something unnecessary. When I apologized for that, she shook her head in a panic.
"No, not at all. It's painful...or rather, it's in the past. Besides, now I'm being loved by Youhei, so I'm very happy."
Saying this, Hime leaned closer to me as if asking for affection.
She slowly released my hand and pressed her cheek against mine. I felt a soft, squishy sensation on my palm. When I lightly stroked that spot, Hime narrowed her eyes in delight.
"I can really feel that they think it's cute."
"Yes. Of course, I mean it...Hime is cute."
I'm not trying to be cool or anything, but I think there are very few people who don't think Hime is cute.
I'm not talking about her appearance. Well, it's true that she is a very beautiful girl... but more than that, I think her personality is cute. Looking at her appearance alone, she is young, but close to beautiful. And yet, the reason why the word "cute" fits her so well is because of her honest personality.
To me, it's a natural feeling.
"Hehe. He called me 'cute' again."
However, she truly enjoys the word "cute."
I thought he was being a little too excited... but now I finally understand why.
Hime may not have been given much love in her childhood.
If so, there's only one thing I need to do.
(I'll keep telling you "cute" a lot)
Whether it's words or attitude.
I'll love Hime so much that one day she won't be able to call herself an "unlovable child."
That was what he decided to do.