My younger sisters extreme energetic childhood was considered cute and slay..
Because she's chubby and Beautiful..
While I was considered a liability..
I only realized this today 18/7/2025
Also.. they said dad has trauma bc of his parents and they excuse him for it.
The pick me eldest sister excuses him while don't excuse me when she was one of the major causes of my trauma.
It's almost sick how she's a sucker for me.
She wants to convince herself that I'm the one who resembles my dad the most
Looks and behaviour
But obsessions are created thanks to deep insecurities. She wants me to be that person because she is that person.
Like any other time she had done something wrong and told me what I was thinking when I reacted.
Like that one time I refused to shit talk her colleague bc I know she twists things
She said I was jealous and acting like them- she only says that bc she knows they're her karma- they're the people who act like her. Yet she convinced herself she's their karma- bc they're bad people.
It's almost funny how people r willing to gaslight themselves just to not heal.
Weak people run from healing bc it's very painful.