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Actually, the reason Li Jiaqi came to the Martial Soul Hall this time was because of this.
Back then, after Zhuge Lan helped Su Biluo's mother recover, he left Bigui City.
Originally, he thought that without Zhuge Lan, he and Su Biluo could return to the happy times they had before.
He could still love her, indulge her, and spoil her as he had before.
However, reality did not turn out as Li Jiaqi wished.
Su Biluo always reserved a place in her heart for Zhuge Lan. She would often gaze into the distance unintentionally, her eyes filled with longing and concern.
Li Jiaqi saw it all, and his heart ached, but he never gave up on his love for Su Biluo.
Days passed, but Su Biluo's sadness did not diminish in the slightest.
Li Jiaqi tried every possible way to make her happy, bringing her various small gifts, and accompanying her through every corner of Bigui City, but Su Biluo's smile was always so fleeting, as if it could be overwhelmed by the longing in her heart at any moment.
Once.
Su Biluo came to the lake she had once visited with Zhuge Lan alone, sitting there quietly, her eyes empty and dazed.
A gentle breeze caressed her hair, but it could not soothe the sadness in her heart.
Li Jiaqi quietly followed behind, watching Su Biluo's lonely figure, his heart filled with pity.
He slowly walked to Su Biluo's side, sat down next to her, and after a moment of silence, said softly:
"Biluo, don't be sad anymore. Zhuge Lan is gone, but I'm still by your side."
Su Biluo trembled slightly, her gaze still fixed on the lake, without saying a word.
Li Jiaqi's eyes revealed tenderness and determination. He continued:
"I know you have him in your heart, and I understand that his position in your heart is very important. But, Biluo, my love for you is no less than his. All these days, I have been paying attention to you, guarding you, accompanying you through every corner of Bigui City, and taking care of your mother as if she were my own, because I want you to be happy and only hope to see your smile."
Su Biluo gently bit her lip, a complex emotion flashing in her eyes.
She slowly turned her head, looked at Li Jiaqi, and sighed softly:
"Brother Jiaqi, I know you are good to me, but my heart..."
Li Jiaqi took Su Biluo's hand, which was a little cold. He held it tightly, as if trying to pass his warmth to her.
"It's okay, Biluo. I can wait, wait for you to open your heart and let me in. I am willing to use my time and patience to wait for your response. I don't expect you to forget Zhuge Lan immediately. I only hope you can give me a chance to take good care of you. I will protect you like he did, make you happy, and make you no longer lonely."
Tears welled up in Su Biluo's eyes. She looked at Li Jiaqi, a surge of emotion rising in her heart.
She knew Li Jiaqi's deep affection for her and understood his dedication.
But.
Her heart was still filled with longing for Zhuge Lan, unable to let go easily.
"Brother Jiaqi, I don't know if I can do it. My heart is very confused. I don't know what to do."
Li Jiaqi gently wiped away the tears from the corners of Su Biluo's eyes and said with a smile:
"Biluo, don't worry, and don't feel pressured. I will always be here, waiting for you to be ready. No matter how long, I am willing to wait."
However, this confession did not yield the result he wanted.
In the following days, Su Biluo seemed to fall into a state of deliberate avoidance.
She seemed to be intentionally avoiding Li Jiaqi, like a frightened deer, trying to avoid places where danger might appear.
Even when they were forced to meet, a very respectful expression would instantly appear on Su Biluo's face.
She would lower her head slightly, greet him softly, her tone carrying an unspeakable sense of alienation.
In the past, they could talk and laugh freely, sharing the joys and sorrows of each other's lives, getting along comfortably and happily.
At that time, when their eyes met, they were full of warmth and understanding.
But now.
Everything has changed.
There seemed to be an invisible wall between them, and the former intimacy had disappeared.
Su Biluo had unspeakable pain in her heart. She didn't know how to face Li Jiaqi and could only choose to avoid him.
Li Jiaqi watched Su Biluo's changes, his heart filled with incomprehension and loss, but he couldn't ask, and could only watch the distance between them grow farther and farther.
Until one day, Su Biluo walked slowly towards Li Jiaqi's room with a heavy heart.
Her steps were hesitant, each step seeming to carry endless entanglement and pain.
When she stood in front of Li Jiaqi's door, that familiar door was like an insurmountable obstacle.
She took a deep breath and knocked gently on the door.
After a moment.
Li Jiaqi's voice came from inside the door:
"Please come in."
Su Biluo opened the door, and what came into view was Li Jiaqi's tidy room.
Sunlight streamed in from the window, illuminating every corner of the room, but it could not illuminate the haze in Su Biluo's heart.
Li Jiaqi saw Su Biluo, a warm smile immediately appearing on his face. He quickly got up and went to meet her:
"Biluo, why are you here? Come, sit down."
Li Jiaqi's voice was full of concern.
But Su Biluo stood still, unmoving, her eyes full of guilt and helplessness.
After a long silence, she finally mustered up her courage and said:
"Brother Jiaqi, I have something to say to you."
Li Jiaqi looked at Su Biluo's serious expression, and a sense of unease rose in his heart.
"What is it? Tell me."
Su Biluo bit her lip and said slowly:
"Brother Jiaqi, you have always been too good to me. Your concern, your care, I have seen it all and remembered it in my heart. But, I'm sorry, I can't do it... I can't respond to your feelings."
Li Jiaqi's face instantly turned pale, his eyes filled with disbelief.
"Why? Biluo, is there something I didn't do well?"
Su Biluo shook her head, tears welling up in her eyes.
"No, you are very good, you are very good. It's my problem, my heart only has Zhuge Lan, I can't let him go. I know I'm being selfish, but I really can't control my feelings."
Li Jiaqi's body trembled slightly, and he tried to keep himself calm.
"Biluo, I don't mind if you have him in your heart, I can wait, wait for you to slowly let him go."
Su Biluo closed her eyes in pain.
"Jiaqi, don't wait for me, you don't deserve to be so good to me. I may never be able to let go of Zhuge Lan, I don't want to delay you."
A trace of despair flashed in Li Jiaqi's eyes, but he still said unwillingly:
"Biluo, is there no possibility for us at all?"
Su Biluo shook her head firmly.
"Jiaqi, I'm sorry, I can't give you hope, it will only make you more painful. You should go find someone who truly loves you, instead of wasting time on me."
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